Ten Minutes.

That's all I got.

It's Friday and its very cold. The sky is gray. Or grey. I never f-in know. And it's very cold outside. Basically, I could still be sleeping if today was Saturday. I am in a total and complete state of grog. And it sucks.

I'm in the process of trying to get over this grog, but I dont see an end to it for a while. Between the ever-lingering battle with money and with my own psyche and also the seeming foreverness of winter, I uhhh I just dont know where to cut my losses. I should prob just cut em everywhere.

I've made a pretty good habit of having a ton of shit on my plate. Like legitimately too much. It's inedible. Because its shit. You get where I'm heading with this? Alright. Donezo.

Additionally, my ADD is on wildfire mode as we speak. Looking at a computer screen is the last thing I want to be doing, but it's my nicotine and one that is a necessary evil. 

I'm getting closer and closer to my volunteering time with a local middle school. You know, I worked with kids for so many years, and I got a little burnt out, but after six or seven months away, I'm feeling the void. Their view on life is a purist one, and an honest one, and I'm learning that working with adults is actually exactly like working with kids, except without the part that's fun. Adults are just as finicky, easily upset, and irrational. They just think they arent. And I think that's dumb. (Not everyone, by the way. But in a working environment, I'm going with the 80 percentile are overgrown, overindulged children. And that sucks.)

So what do I do and where do I go and what am I waiting for?

I only had ten minutes. Those questions are wayyyyyyy to big to handle.